Mga Awit ng Panghihinayang

Sinusubukan niya pa din.
Na punan ang mga araw mula ng pagkawala ng kanyang puso.
Nakakabulag ang bilis ng pagdaan ng pag-ibig.
Iniwan siya nitong sugatan at walang kakapitan.
Pag-iisip na hindi matahimik.
Mga luhang nagmistulang asin na dahil sa walang katapusang pagdaloy.
Wala ng bakanteng silid sa puso niya.

Ilan pang pangarap ang dapat masawi?
Ilang pang bilang ng pagkukunwari?
Ilang pang pananakit ng pag-ibig ang dapat indahin
bago ka bumalik sa akin?

May pag-asa pa bang yakapin ako ng pag-asa?
Dadating pa kaya ang panahon na kakampihan ako ng panahon?
Didinggin pa kaya ang mga panalangin kong bumalik ka?
O sadyang mangungulila pa din ako ng walang katapusang pansamantala?

Gusto kong mahawakan ang mala porselana mong balat
At ang mukha mong tila anghel..
Pero ayoko.
Na gusto ko.
Na ayoko.

Ngunit kung ang tanging makapagbabalik ng sigasig sa buhay ko
ay ang apoy ng tila impyerno mong pag-ibig
Magpapasunog ako..
Magpapatapon sa kawalan ng walang hanggang pananakit..
at kasinungalingan ng ipinagkakait mo nang pagmamahal..

Sa muli..

Kung makikita pa natin ang isa't isa..

Kung makikita pa kita..

The author of this guest post, Auj Lazaro, is an eccentric woman who wears a kind face but a bitchy attitude -- of course, I am kiddin'! (Or maybe not). She gets sick when she reports for work and sleeps early only when there's a lot of work to be done. You can never get to her. Really. But you can reach her through her blog at http://www.iamauj.blogspot.com and check out more of her VERY customized eccentricities.

The White Flag

Then he thought, after the long reign of summer sun comes a little interlude of rain shower. He thought it was refreshing, while some living muscles tell him it feels gloomy. The sky looks sad, the rain showers look life millions of tears coming from a very frightening domain. The man in him can’t help but be vulnerable. Once again, the defenses of strong facade break down and he just went with the strong force of thinking back his life.

What makes a person happy?
What makes a person feel gloomy?

He instantly thought that without aims to defy norms, it’s really not the tangible, material things that make him happy. Not the hottest gadget or huge bank account. He banks on people. His happiness depends on how other people are doing with their life. He always hopes for their happiness and wellness. It comes naturally for him to care and check on every person who matter in his life from time to time.

Selfless?

You may say so, but it’s not the significant point. He realized that it’s like a parasite’s deal to get happiness from others after hearing a lot of wise men say that happiness is found within, it is innate. They said no one should seek happiness from others. No one should be a parasite.

He cant help but feel sorry for the man in him; the man who would go beyond what’s possible to show care and importance. He can’t seem to get the point that sometimes, too much care is like an encrypted note of dismissal.

Today, he plans to stay still and hold on to what’s real and what’s more important. He raises a red flag for people who shamelessly ignore the efforts of someone caring for them. At the same time, he raises a white flag for the man who tries so hard just to be noticed. With all hopes, may he rest in peace.

EMO

Is it a lifestyle, a phenomenon or simply a fad?

They call themselves EMO. They are very distinct- in attitude, in clothing, even in the way they view life. EMO is an idea which can be described by bangs symmetrically cut to expose the nose and lips while hiding some parts of the eyes. The crown area can look like spikes and there could be variations of this base style. Clothing is basically an ensemble of very skinny jeans, tight shirt or chequered top with a scarf. Some may sport big sneakers or jazzed up chucks or Vans. Eyeliners can also be worn even by guys who live by the EMO concept.

Call it a fad because characters were actually made to define how EMO concept looks like.

Call it a lifestyle because people implementing this concept in their lives are actually living in a slow, well thought of frames of daily deliverance.

Say its a phenomenon because music is also embracing the EMO concept.

Just so I will be able to define what EMO is, I consulted Wikipedia and this is what i got.

Emo (pronounced /ˈiːmoʊ/) is a genre of music that originated from hardcore punk ^[1] and later adopted pop punk influences when it became mainstream in the United States.

It has since come to describe several variations of music with common roots and associated fashion and stereotypes.

In the mid-1980s, the term emo described a subgenre of hardcore punk which stemmed from the Washington, D.C. music scene. In later years, the term emocore, short for "emotional hardcore",^[2][3] was also used to describe the emotional performances of bands in the Washington, D.C. scene and some of the offshoot regional scenes such as Rites of Spring, Embrace, One Last Wish, Beefeater, Gray Matter, Fire Party, and later, Moss Icon

In the mid-1990s, the term emo began to refer to the indie scene that followed the influences of Fugazi, which itself was an offshoot of the first wave of emo. Bands including Sunny Day Real Estate, Far and Texas Is the Reason had a more indie rock style of emo, more melodic and less chaotic. The so-called "indie emo" scene survived until the late 1990s, when many of the bands either disbanded or shifted to mainstream styles. As the remaining indie emo bands entered the mainstream, newer bands began to emulate the mainstream style.

Today popular bands like Fall Out Boy, My Chemical Romance,^[4] Panic at the Disco,^[5] and Paramore^[6] are described as emo.

In recent years the popular media has associated emo with a stereotype that includes being emotional, sensitive, shy, introverted, or angsty.^[24][25][26] It is also associated with depression, self-injury, and suicide.^[27][28]

I think that this season, more people will appreciate the concept. Ask if I’m a part of this segment? I’d say not. Hey, I can’t sport the look and so is the entire lifestyle.